Actually she came into our life since August last year. She and her mother had nowhere to go. But that time we only meant to help, temporarily giving them shelter. Somewhere in December, they left.
Until January, we learnt that the mother is willing to hand her child to a couple, but then the couple cancelled the plan because of unavoidable circumstances. Unfortunately the mother already left, so she has nobody to take care of her. Cutting the story short, Putri finally ended up with us.
A child is always welcomed into our house; but I never thought it would be this way. I thought I would have 9 months to get prepared, mentally, emotionally, financially etc. What happen now is like our life crashing into something in just a blink of an eye. Maybe things would be smoother if we do have plan for it, but in this case, the decision is made up just because an innocent child really needs a home urgently.
Until today, me and hubby still haven't speak much seriously about the matter, we didn't declare anything, or discuss anything; like, who's going to take care of the baby when we go to work?
We're still adjusting.
So I've been carrying Putri wherever I go. To office. Bank. Post office. Buying groceries. Etc. I put a pillow on the passengers's seat, and secure her with the safety belt, but she don't want to stop crying. So I have to pull over, put her on my lap and drive with one hand. Owh, what a scary situation.
Now my car is equipped with a baby car-seat but when not driving, I still need to carry her all the time.
I do feel like breaking down sometimes. Office. Home. Stamp. Baby. I have a hard time adjusting. I don't want to be over-ambitious, I can never replace her real mother and perhaps I would never be the best Mom for her, but as long as she's with me, I will try my best to provide her love and protection. As long as she needs me.
Meet Putri Nur Summayah. She's only 8 months old.
And Putri, this is Mommy's blog. Meet my blog readers.